I received a text message from my cousin, Ate Val. It says,
"There is nothing wrong with being single. It's actually nice to be free.
I can stay out late every night. I can wear whatever I want.
I can just be my plain old self and the whole world sees that I can take care of myself.
But to tell you the truth, I wouldn't mind having someone to walk home with me.
I wouldn't mind wanting to look good or trying to be better for someone.
I wouldn't mind letting someone hold me when I'm just too weak to go no.
It's nice to be free...
But I wouldn't mind being bound to someone who loves me."
Actually, that is how I feel right now. I've just finished watching Goong, a romantic-comedy korean series. The whole plot was so nice that I, even dream about myself, being one of the characters. Isn't that funny? Well I think it is. But I can't help it. All I can do is just fantasize. My mind is filled with illusions, that someday the right guy will come and just bring back the smile to my face. Someone who will love me for who I am. I've been to a lot. I had broken many hearts. Yet my heart had been broken many times as well. The only problem with me is that, I have these standards on who to love. Such standards I know no one could pass. A friend of mine once said to me, "why not modify your standards?". I guess she was right. I was blinded of those perfect couples, that I too want to have the same relationship they have. Mikka, another cousin of mine said, "Do not look for the perfect guy of every girl's dream. Rather wait for your own Mr. Right." I did like many guys who didn't pass my standards. The problem I am now facing is that, if I like a person so much, I tend to focus all my attentions to him and not look at those people willing to offer love to me. Yet, the truth that lies behind is . Even if I like the person so much, I end up getting hurt because the love I'm giving to the person cannot be reciprocated by him. I'm a really sucker, a big LOSER in this game. My cousins who are both of my age have their love ones now. They seem so happy with these persons they are with. I'm happy for them it's just that I can't relate to their feelings. Every night, I pray to Him. Always asking when is "he" coming. Maybe God is irritated on how I nag Him in my prayers. I'm such a hopeless romantic person. All I can do is just dream, dream, dream, just dream, and a little more of dreaming. People kept asking me why I still don't have any boyfriend. Well, not because I'm picky. It's just that no one seems to have enough courage to ask me. If he really likes me, he will pursue me. Looks like, no one wants to make a mistake in loving me. Right now, I'm in the process of healing. I'm not closing my doors to anyone because of what happened to me. I'm still young. I know he'll come. If you're reading this, please do come. I know that you'll be the angel God has been planning to give me. I will wait for you. I will.
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i hope your Mr.right will come soon and bring back the smile in your face